It took me a while to finally wash you off every crevice of my skin, to be able to hear your voice without a part of me breaking inside

And for the longest time, the thought of you out of my life seemed abnormal

But when our story drifted into November, you started to fade away like the last leaf in autumn, and my heart began to feel warm again after being left out to perish by you for so long

I stopped longing for messages back and found myself lost in the thought of other things, people, rather than you

and in those moments

I realized I am better off without you